life- once again... is, just plain or you could say blunt.

ok so i love him and i know it. just because im young dosent mean that i cant feel love. my face lights up or i smile when i hear his name, when he walks past i stop and stare, when he talks to me my heart stops, i think about him atleast 10 times a day, i look at him when hes not looking at me, i know everything about him, so thats all... i am in love with him. i should just ask him out. theres nothing to loose except for my soul being crushed right? wish me luck :/

confused- about everything.

so. this boy thing sucks. i like him. he dosent like me. simple. thats it. i try to get his attention or something like that but it dosent work. am i invisible, i mean. i probly am. he cant see me, and i dont even know why im typing this. like seriosusly. no ones commenting soo that means no one cares right or am i just simply invisible. im just confused. "i think" im invisible to him but then everyone says that he will stop his whole conversation just to look at me when i walk past but he dosent realise that hes stopped talking and starts looking at me. is this one of those things were i like him and he likes me back but everyone knows it except for us?

hopefully.

you

you know that feeling,
when you look at him and think wow, i love him, but were just friends. or maybe when he looks at her and it hurts so much sometimes. when your in love with him and hes in love with her. when you love everything about him and he loves everything about her. you wasted all your 11:11 wishes on him. you kept it in for so long.. no one knows how confused you are.
do you tell him you like him
or do you keep it in as usual..
its confusing.

and " its complicated" is the answer when someone asks you whats wrong. because you love him.. you love him soo much that sometimes you just wish he knew!

day 1

so, i want to go on an exchange or to boarding school but my mum wont let me. i have to get a scholarship if i want to go so i am going to apply for one but im not going to tell my mum. yes, i know i shouldnt be doing this but i really want to go. she will probly yell and scream at me if i get in but if i dont she will never trust me again but either way im dead.


i have a massive crush on this guy in my year, i have liked him for 11 months, but he dosent like me. he dosent like anyone. hes not interested in girls yet, hes name is billy. he lives near my bestfriend (jane). jane just moved here and she knows how much i like him. so one night he comes over to janes house with his bestfriend tim and he stays for about 6 hours and we flirted and talked and yer thats about as far as it went. a couple of night before he said he wanted to hook up but then he got there and didnt bring it up. i was disapointed but its alright. so they went home and straight after jane said that she liked him. it was a dog act cause she new how much i liked him. the next day i was really upset because she kept going on and on and on how hes going to her house and there watching a movie toghether (alone). so i told my other bestfriend maddy and she went and told billy that jane liked him and how shes really excited about him coming over on the  weekend and it turns out that billy had no idea about going over to her house on the weekend and he said that shes going to get so cut cause hes going to his dads. so jane is just dangling him infront of me to make me jealous. what a bitch.. by the way ( she has a boyfriend).


teenage years.. fun but bitchy.